We need a time of rest!

As I felt myself starting into another seizure today, I started to pray, by only breathing His name (Yahweh). I was in the seizure and I felt myself being protected by His presence. My body didn't start the shaking and convulsing like it normaly does in a seizure. This one was different. I felt His peace like never before and I started to understand somethings that I have been praying about. As I layed on my bed I felt my husband come behind me and hold me. I layed there in complete peace. I felt like I could fight off a thousand demons. I felt like my spirit was on top of the world. Like I have never been stronger, but at the same time I felt the weakest I have ever felt before in my body. I was unable to move my arms or legs. I was unable to barely take a breath. I realize that my body is in need of recovery. In the last three days I have had three people tell me that my spirit is so strong but my body is so weak. I need to allow my body to try and catch up. I finally understood this was the truth. It is so hard to admit that you are not superwoman and you can't conquer the world. I have worked so hard to prove things to some people that are involved in my life. I finally realized that some people will never change and that they want to see evil in other people. Because, they have hardened their religious hearts to Christ the Lord. They have closed their ears to the voice of the Holy Spirit. I feel even more ashamed of myself, than hurt from these people. I am ashamed, because, I have allowed pride to come in and take the focus off of Jesus in this area. When I was reading Galations 1:10( Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.) I looked up the word approval, it means blessing. This hit me like a lead brick in my spirit. I realized that I have been trying to receive a blessings from these people. A blessing in the work we do, a blessing in my parenting and a blessing in me being a good wife. I knew in my mind I wanted a blessing from God but in my spirit I also wanted a blessing from these people. I now realize how wrong and offensive this is to Christ. That is why i am writing to tell you all, that we are taking a month away from hands on ministry. Ross will still be teaching at the school but I will be stepping away from my ministry areas. I am going to listen to my God, my husband and my family. I am going to allow my body a much needed rest. I am thankful to all of you that support us and I believe that you will understand my reasoning. In the first week of November we will be helping AINDAC with their big day of social help. Also we will return to going to our little mountain village that we are helping with along with our other ministry responibilities. Please remember that I am not going to be walking away from my highest ministry responsablilites, my husband and daughters. Thanks to all of you that have been praying for me. I believe that I am on my road to recovery. In church the other day, I heard the Lord speak to me and he said, "Your strenght is in me, your health is in me, your joy is in me. You don't need to look any where else but in Me." I am going to take Him for His word and work on this during my time off. Thanks again to all of you who are praying and supporting us. Please don't stop the prayers. This is truly the earthly support that we are in need of right now.