An Eye Opener!!!!!

Hello everyone I have some great things to share with you that Jesus has been revealing to me. These last two months have been very challenging for me. Everything from pinched nerves in my spine, to a hour long seizure that I am very thankful to be alive from, has happened. Through all of these things I know that God was trying to teach me something. I knew a part of it was patience and another part was learning how to balance life. The thing I was not understanding was the thing that Jesus was speaking to me the most, TO BREATH!! Did you know that everytime that we take a breath we are saying the name of God. Try it! Take a deep breath, breath in YAAAAA-then breath out, WEHHHHH. We are literaly saying His name everytime we take a breath. YAWEH. I was real frustrated yesterday(Thursday),because, on Monday I had another small seizure coming home from visiting a friend in the hospital. I have been very tired and have had a headache again this week. Finally I said to God, "what am I not getting", "What am I not learning that you are trying to teach me". It was amazing how He literaly taught me that all I needed to to was breath.

Ever since I became a Christian I have always picture myself at the feet of Jesus, washing His feet with my tears. Always thanking Him for the sacrifice He made for me and the love He has shown me. I would always pray to Him and say, "Lord what can I do for you" and "How can I be a better person so others can believe". My prayers always had these six words in it: What can I do for You! I know that He has been telling me the answer, but I have been too deaf and to busy to hear it. He has always told me to just breath, and to picture Him as a Daddy not just as a Savior. It took two months and a lot of miracles to finally understand Him. He spoke it so kindly and so gentle into my spirit. He also in these last two months has used a people that are so dear to my heart to teach me. I have had people come up to me who have had visions, dreams and special words to help me understand the depth of love He has for His people (me included). He has really taught me to just breath. By this I am being what He wants me to be. This seams like it is a easy thing to do but just try to live it out. It is easy to understand it in your mind but it is a lot harder to allow it to go to your heart. When I study about the New Jerusalm I always think that is when I will be able to sit on His lap and just be able to enjoy Him. I have been wrong. He wants us to also enjoy Him now. Can you imagen a God like this? One who tells us to be like servants to Him but He also tells us that He wants us to be treated like His most loved sons. That we will be kings and Queens in His kingdoms.

I am so glad that all this has happened. It has taught me to trust in Him (even with my life....literaly), patience, to listen, thankfulness (for my husband and my kids), to except and most of all to allow myself to be loved by Him.

I would like to challenge you guys to just BREATH!! Remember that He is the one who breathed life into you. Are you living a life that gives Him glory or are you just expecting your next breath to come from Him without giving thanks? Do you want to live just expecting breath or do you want to give thanks to the one who created life. We live in a world that has enough things to make us worry about. You can be sure that if you except Him into your life, you won't have to worry when the breaths are no more. It is the easiest but one of the hardest choices you will make in your life. Allow Him to be your best friend, to spend time with Him, and to ask to be forgiven of all the sins you have commited in your life. Know He is the Son of God and that he was raised from the dead and is seated at the right hand of God. Also know that just saying these words don't make you His son or daughter but that you need to live the life that He has commanded. He didn't just leave us guessing what this life looks like. He Himself gave us the perfect example to learn from. Also He gave us the Bible. Know that religion is not a relationship. Think of how you want a best friend to treat you. This is how you need to treat Jesus. You can't build a life long friendship over night but it only takes a few words to start one. He don't expect perfection but He does expect dedication and commitment. Like a true friend is always there for you, He is the one who made us understand what friendship is. He will never leave you. Take a deep breath and just BREATH!!!!!!
Blessings and thanks for all of your dedication to our family. It don't go unseen! Amanda