trials and temptations

today was a such a relaxing day, I believe that God has finally delivered me from the valley that I have been going through. I have been praying about "stuff" in my life that I found was so deep rooted in my life I didn't know that they even existed. The Holy Spirit revealed them to me and the battle was on, it was me against my knowledge of God. I tried everything to hold on to what I knew was wrong, but knowing that it was wrong was what kept me fighting. There are things that I just cant explain but when you get up at 2 am or 3 am night after night after night because you are in a mental battle that you cant fight on your strength and you call out to God with doubt in your mind saying a prayer that you only half mean drives you to utter brokenness. That is the time that you finally call out to God in a humble, broken, submissive spirit and call out to God, "not my will but Yours be done" and mean it with everything in you. God has taken me and broken me and rebuilt me and wow what a feeling. I have been open to the realization that there is far more out there that God wants us to experience, but because of us as people we will not until we find God, and not just God, but the "I Am that I Am" God. I thank the Lord for revealing this to me this early in the game. I did not go through this for me, so if anyone needs to talk about this with me feel free to call me or e-mail me because I have finally found the God that wants to deliver, the same God that was killed by His creation, for His creation out of pure love. I thank you all for praying for me as Mandy and I are undergoing this life changing schooling, and missions preparations.
PS. We are currently looking at the country list possibilities so please pray for us as we try and figure out what country we are going to spend the next couple years of our lives in.